Psalm 119:143 Trouble and anguish have overtaken me, Yet Your commandments are my delights
Today was a stay at home day. I had planned to go to a photo class on beginning portrait photography at McEuan Park with my photography club, but as soon as Mike got up I knew that wasn’t going to happen. It was nothing specific, just the way he moved, slower than normal, he couldn’t find his glasses, on his face; he couldn’t find his book, in his hand; he couldn’t find the blanket he covers up with while he sits and reads, on the floor by his chair. I knew I wasn’t going anywhere….
About 1pm Mike decided to eat something – a bowl of granola. I asked him if he wanted me to fix it for him, but he decided he would do it. Usually he doesn’t eat at all unless I place it in front of him, I was happy that today he took the initiative; I didn’t ask him if he was hungry, maybe I should have earlier.. However, he is usually up for at least 3 hours before he’s ready to eat, if then.
I find I am curtailing many of my activities to be available for him at almost any given time; I don’t mind doing this, but occasionally, when I have something planned, something I have been looking forward to doing away from the house, I feel frustrated!
This man, who has always been so self-sufficient, isn’t anymore. He is more like a child, though if he knew I saw him that way, it would make him really upset with me. I have already decided to stay home from ladies Bible study on Tuesday mornings and I miss the fellowship there; but I don’t feel good leaving Mike at home alone for the 2 1/2 – 3 hours I would be gone. On days I am out running errands, I stop by the house with one excuse, or another, just to check on him.
So today, I sat with Mike. We didn’t do anything, or go anywhere. He read his book and I was on the computer, or my tablet, for the entire day. He took a couple of naps, he got his meds, and this evening we watched some tv together. It’s been a great day. Have a good evening.