Control

Ephesians 5:2 And walk in love, as Christ also has loved us and given Himself for us, an offering and a sacrifice to God for a sweet-smelling aroma.

Me and Mike at the Art Spirit Gallery – Good memories from 6 years ago.

I got my hair done today, and in the past Mike would have commented on it, he always made a point to let me know he noticed. He didn’t today – even though I had left him a note telling him I had a hair appointment. I am resigned to the fact these small things in life will no longer be in his focus… at least he knew me today.

Mike offered to help with cleaning things up around the house, but I told him I had it under control, now when he helps I have to go back and undo, or redo, what ever it is he helped with. Mike used to do the vacuuming for me, and I loved it! Now, he forgets how to turn the machine on. He also keeps forgetting how to work the microwave! After I was done with the cleaning I asked Mike if he was still seeing someone next to him – he had said he was hallucinating and kept seeing someone in the chair next to him. He mumbled, “I shouldn’t have told you that. You’re going to make an issue of it” I told him, “I won’t make and issue, I’m trying to fix things so that doesn’t happen” He told me I needed to forget he had said anything. Is this part of the paranoia of dementia? Are the hallucinations part of the dementia? I will be calling the doctor on Monday about these things, I need to know if there’s anything I can do to assist Mike and reduce any chance of paranoia.

THEN!!!

Last night, rather, early this morning, at 3 am, Mike woke me up saying he needed a half of one of his pills to help him go to sleep. I got up, got the medication, and gave him 1 pill. He said he was going to cut it in half and go to sleep. So this evening, after I had given him his meds, he asked for a pill to cut in half – “What happened to the half you should have left over from last night?” He got upset with me. “Can’t you handle this? Do I need to take my meds away from you and handle it myself?” I stopped, looked at him and said, “You will not get your meds back, I am still working on getting everything straightened out from the mess they were in, and I have them.” He got upset with me and said, “when I cut the one in half last night, the 2nd half crumbled and I don’t know where the pieces went. You need to give me another one to have in case I need it. You don’t have to know everything I do.” I told him since I was now responsible for keeping the medicines straight, I needed to know what was going on with them, including knowing that a half on one got thrown out.

I went upstairs, got the extra pill, and I watched him cut it in half, and put it into a saucer so he had it if he needs it. He still commented that he thinks he should take the meds back and handle them himself, and I told him it won’t happen. I think we may go to battle over this, but I hope not. I pray he just lets me continue to handle the medications and realizes I am doing what I need to so I can protect him.

Throughout today it snowed a bit, then snow and rain, and more snow. There is a light dusting of snow on the ground, and I am looking forward to having the grandkids here tomorrow.

It’s been a fairly good day. Have a good evening.

Published by motherpooh

I am a Mom and a Grandma. I like photography, genealogy, scrapbooking, canning, and gardening

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