The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him.
Taken at noon 15 Jan 2021
I got up at 8 this morning – late for me. Mike was sleeping on the sofa! He said he wanted to get an early start on the day! (An early start of sleeping?) Anyway, he asked for coffee, and he was asleep before it had finished brewing. He woke up again at 10 and I fixed breakfast and gave him the coffee. Then shtf – (s…..t hit the fan) I told Mike we were having an interview for a home care company and he flipped out! It was a day! Mike was very resentful that I called Comfort Keepers to come and evaluate so I can get a break. He became very nasty and unkind to me in front of the interviewer! He was a total ass! He basically told the interviewer that I was not trustworthy and I was unreliable. Seriously?? I know he ‘thinks’ he’s just fine, but this company was recommended by his neurologist, and it’s not for him – it’s for me!
He argued with everything I said, he snapped at me when the interviewer tried to talk to me and then he began to look for keys. In the drawers, under the sofa, in all the jacket pockets he could find. He told me I could go do any errand I wanted, I didn’t need to worry about him, and he just might not be home when I got back! He argued that he doesn’t appreciate losing control of his life and he wants it back! (seriously, I’d like to give it to him)
After the interviewer left, Mike took a nap, and then decided he need to go to North 40 to get gloves, from there he wanted fish for dinner. We ended up at Elmer’s on Appleway, and Mike really enjoyed his dinner. He said that was one of the best fish dinners he’s had in a long time. We were in the house by 6, I gave Mike his evening meds and as he was taking them, the water cup slipped out of his hand and spilled all over the carpet – he just sat there and looked at the puddle on the floor, I got a towel and sopped it up and he looked like he was going to cry. Mike was in bed by 7:15.
I got sidetracked this evening talking with our son, and Robert has asked that I sit with him, soon, and go over the trust and will and give him all pertinent numbers of folks to contact should something happen to me and Mike still be here; or we both pass away. I am hoping to get this done within the next couple of weeks.