Emotions can’t be turned off

Psalm 91:11 For He shall give His angels charge over you, To keep you in all your ways.

Another abbey in Scotland. August 2017

I need to remember, Mike will NOT remember things. The upset we had yesterday is totally gone from his memory – it doesn’t matter how it’s affected me; it doesn’t matter how upset, emotional, frustrated I get – Mike doesn’t remember and therefore, to him, it didn’t happen! I am wondering how I can get through those times without it eating me up inside? I need to deal with the issue at hand, and then fully, completely let it go! How do you do that?

I was still upset when I got up today, my countenance is sad in my inner being. I decided to play music today – all day. It wasn’t loud, but it was on and I could hear it just fine. I began with early 60’s soft rock, then to early 70’s soft rock, the genre changed a little as the music continued playing, then it began getting more rock and roll – that’s not what I wanted. I asked google for Enya and I got the exact type of music I needed to wind the day down. Then Mike wanted to go to pizza and we went to Iron Pizza on Best Ave. We called ahead and ordered it, and when we got there and seated, our pizza was coming to our table within a few minutes. We got marionberry cider -not as good as I wished it was, huckleberry cider is much better. I didn’t finish the cider, I think I only drank about 1/4 of the glass. After we got back home, I had Enya playing some more, and after an hour, I decided it was time to go to bed. Since I came upstairs I’ve had 2 phone calls, and a text conversation. I am meeting a friend for lunch tomorrow and Mike is going with the guys.

Last night I was up until after 2 am finishing all the taxes paperwork, this weekend I will be typing it all out for the accountant, and packing up the rest of the papers. Then 2020 papers will be put away, except for what the accountant will need

So for now I will say good night.

Published by motherpooh

I am a Mom and a Grandma. I like photography, genealogy, scrapbooking, canning, and gardening

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