2 Corinthians 3:4 And we have such trust through Christ toward God.
A castle in Scotland, August 2017
Today, I got Mike to PT, then I dropped him off at a restaurant with the guys – the main guy, Tom, was supposed to keep Mike out until 12:45-1:00 pm and give me a chance to go to lunch with a friend. I met her at 11:30
I went to lunch – cried, talked, cried some more, and about 12:45 I left to head home. I remembered I needed to stop at the home goods store to get a curtain rod for the bedroom, and when I got back to the house it was 1:05. Mike was there, and I soon discovered he’d been dropped off at the house at noon. Tom had something to do, so he took Mike home – didn’t contact me to let me know, Mike doesn’t remember how to use the cell phone, so he couldn’t call me to let me know. I depended on Tom. He knows the situation with Mike, and he didn’t even consider letting me know!!! I cannot depend on him anymore. I cannot make plans to do anything at all after noon. I drop Mike off with the guys at 11 am – I must expect that he will be back to the house at 12pm. I am so disappointed……
Next week the guys are going to Olive Garden for their lunch and will need to plan on having just 1 hour. I have absolutely no one I can rely on. I have so many things where I need 2 hours. Payday, I need at least 2 hours to go to the bank, pay the utilities, and get home. No groceries, nothing else. Coming up is our appointment with the tax accountant, I need 2 hours. I don’t want Mike to go with me, he gets so confused when we talk finances and it make him very irritable and aggressive. I don’t know what to do anymore. Mike still refuses to have anyone in the house except for Robert and Alycia and the grandkids – for them to be here with Mike, means they have to give up their free time away from work to sit with him. I’ve made arrangements for this coming Saturday for Alycia to be here, so I can go out with some ladies, but she’s giving up her free time and I do feel guilty about that.
With Tom letting me down, I feel hesitant to rely on anyone else. It’s to late to back out of Saturday now – but if it happened that Alycia couldn’t be here after all, I would just have to apologize to the hostess for Saturday and not make plans anymore.
I’ve cried so much my head hurts, and my sinuses are stuffed. I just don’t know which way to turn.