Philippians 1:2 Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.
Spokane Falls, night shoot. April 2017
Mike slept until almost noon, and then didn’t want to go anywhere, so we stayed home all day..I did a little bit in my office, and I prepared sections 3&4 of the raised garden bed. Now they are ready for soil to be added.
Mike is angry with me this evening, he says I don’t love him anymore. (sigh) I’ve tried to explain that if I didn’t love him, I’d let him fail, and over dose himself; but of course, he doesn’t see that. He says I am not here for him, I am so busy doing things that I don’t have time to sit with him and watch tv, or talk to him. I tried to tell him, I don’t want to watch The Unit, (a series) over and over and over again. He says let’s watch a movie together, I’ll agree, join him and we either watch the news, or The Unit! I have so much to do, and I know he doesn’t understand, but I cannot sit through it while he dozes off. And talking to him isn’t working. He is ready to be upset with whatever we talk about. As much as I have tried to discuss things with him, he insists I am leaving him out, he has no control anymore, I am trying to manipulate things to make him have to be locked up. I am truly sorry he doesn’t have control, but my goodness, what is there to control? I have always handled the finances, I have always handled the appointments, the mail, the laundry, the shopping, etc. The only things he’s not in control of is driving a vehicle and handling power tools! Each of those are major safety risks if he were to be in control, not only for himself, but for others, also!!
The last 3 nights have been upsets. No yelling, swearing at me, calling me names, or telling me I’m stupid; but accusing me of not caring, taking away his rights, keeping him home all the time. Yet, mostly, he tells me he doesn’t want to go anywhere, or do anything away from the house. I think he’s just angry with his situation, and after things being calm for a while we’re now back in a season of upsets. It’s almost 11 pm, I cannot go to sleep until I know he’s gone to bed, and so I wait on him.