Galatians 5:22 But the fruit of the spirit is love call my joy, peace, patience con my patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control
After last night’s emotionally charged, and draining, experience I was happy today started out peaceful and quiet. The skies were grey and it was a little windy and it looked like a large storm would be coming through (it didn’t) all was well, I got some laundry done, last night’s dinner dishes, and I enjoyed a cup of hot Constant Comment tea with Bailey’s Irish Cream. I was reading a book and relaxing. Mike got up about 10:30 and unleashed a torrent of venom, and disgust, and anger at me. I dared to call paramedics! I was so concerned for his well being I was choking back tears last night. Today I was choking back tears of anger at his words. It was ugly.
After unloading on me, he fell asleep for 2 hours. I began working on cleaning out a room on the main floor for him to have a bedroom so he doesn’t have to climb stairs. I had to keep myself busy so I wouldn’t break down and sob at the things he said to me.
When he woke up, I fixed him eggs and toast and after he ate, he went back to sleep for a couple more hours. He had a glass of water and back to sleep.
For dinner he decided he wanted to go to Elmer’s and we went, ordered a cup of clam chowder and 1/2 a sandwich each.
We stopped at the pharmacy, then home. Mike went to the family room and I cleaned the kitchen and put his clothes into the wash. The neurologist called and wants to see Mike tomorrow morning, and if all checks out, we are going out of town for the weekend. I need to get away. I would love to have a complete weekend break from caregiving, but since that isn’t going to happen, maybe being away, with the 2 of us, will help?
For now, I am physically and emotionally drained.