Isaiah 41:10 Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
It was so much cooler when I got up this morning. I was thrilled to have the cool, and a peaceful start to the day. I got Mike up, and we headed out the door at 10 to go to the chiropractor. From there, Mike had an appointment with his doctor in Rathdrum. We had gotten coffee and I need to use the facilities at someplace. We got to the parking lot where the doctor’s office is located, and there is a shopping mall also. I went into Bi-Mart, I told Mike I would be right back. 5 minutes, that’s all it took and when I got out to the car, he was gone! 😳 I went back into the store and looked for him, back to the parking lot, and I ran into the store and asked them to page him. He didn’t respond, they checked everywhere. No Mike. I went back outside feeling panic, I called the doctor’s office and asked if he was there, and I drove across the parking lot while I was on hold. I was feeling like a failure, I really messed up, I was sick to my stomach with worry. Just as I walked in, the receptionist asked him, ‘Are you Mike Lee?’ he affirmed and I burst out crying! I yelled! “Why did you leave the car?” His reply, ” I couldn’t find you.” I sobbed, and I continued to cry as I checked him in. By the time I was calming down they called him back to the exam room. He’s lost more weight, not good; but everything else was good, BP, pulse, O2 sats, etc.
Mike was taken care of and I was trying hard not to beat myself up to bad. We’ve reached a point where I cannot leave him in the car to run into the post office, the bank, etc. I will never again allow him to just sit and wait for me, because he won’t.
He fell asleep on the sofa as soon as we got home, and slept until 7:30. He woke up, said good night, and went to bed. I’m still dealing with the anxiety of earlier, not as much, but I keep playing why did I? About leaving him. This is the 1st time he’s left the car when I’ve needed to run into someplace, but I won’t be leaving him alone anymore.