Mourning already

1 John 4:16 And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them

Mike was very restless today, and he fell several times. I contacted his primary doctor and they want Mike in the office tomorrow. My hope is to get hospice in for some day to day help and possibly I’ll get some respite care out if this.

I haven’t been able to get Mike to take his meds, it’s been a mess all the way around. He’s now totally incontinent and unaware of what’s going on.

I am so wiped out, still, that I am not doing much good to anyone at the moment. Mike fell several time this morning, but has been more quiet this evening.

I am thinking he may not be on this earth much longer. 😪 I know I have been grieving him for sometime, already, but I still have him here. Though, for him, this is not living. He’s barely existing.

If Mike had any idea of how much he’s deteriorated he would be appalled with his condition. My heart is sad.