Mike thanked me

Galations 5:14 For the entire law is fulfilled in keeping this one command: ‘love your neighbor as yourself’

My 1st class is completed

I had the beginning of Vertigo, and I was able to get myself to the chiropractor. I had called someone for help, but no one answered my call. I’m glad what I was dealing with wasn’t important. I got home in time for Mike to be taken to the Bennett House, then I was finally able to connect my printer to my laptop and get it working!

Phil Canaday, took Mike to the Bennett House and I was able to start my guardianship/conservatorship classes. I began with the guardianship one, and it took about 90 minutes. I was told the 2 classes were about an hour each. It seems to me that 90 minutes is a bit more than “about an hour” Anyway. Class 1 is done and I have the certificate.

Paola Canaday, went to the market with me, we got some ground beef and doctored up the ravioli we had the other night. It was very good, especially since we added an Asian salad with fresh strawberries and mangos. We also had garlic bread. Yummy and tasty.

Mike wanted to go to bed early, and at 7:15 I gave him his evening pills and he went to bed, bit got up again 3x. The 3rd time he told me, ” thank you for caring for me and taking care of my medications ” my heart melted! It’s these small, special things that help me to keep going and keep trying.

Giod night.

The doctor said No

Psalm 103:20 Bless the Lord, you His angels, who excel instrength, who do His word, heeding the voice of His word.,

Strutting male turkey

This morning began with an loud noise, like an alarm clock going off. I went downstairs to find the cause, and at 1st I thought it was my refrigerator. It turns out the noise was an alarm from the sump pump in the basement, and the plumber can’t be here before Monday! Our guests are going to be very inconvenienced; They can’t use the toilet or shower. 😬 However, they’re being good sports about the situation and said we’ll muddle through.

I took Mike to his GP appointment today. I had called yesterday, after his big blow up. As soon as he was checked in, he was taken to the exam room. His weight is up to 144 from 135, and that’s good. He told the doctor he believed he could drive around town, and the doctor said No; then he told the doctor he wanted the door removed, and again the doctor said No. (Thank goodness) Mike decided he wanted a flu shot, so they gave him one. I need to start carrying all the paperwork with me for guardianship/conservatorship and the POA (power of attorney) The GP switched up some of Mike’s medications and he’s going to be in touch with the neurologist. All is seeming good.

After the doctor’s appointment, I took Mike and Phil to Tomato Street and dropped them off to have lunch with the other guys; Paola and I went to lunch with Cindy. We had a good time talking and sharing.

This evening Mike said he was totally bored, but refused to do anything I asked. Paola says tomorrow don’t ask, just have the stuff out, ready to use, and see what happens. It’s worth a try.

Mike didn’t want dinner, I was able to have him wait for his evening meds until 8pm, then he went right to bed.

Paola, and I, talked for another hour + before we both decided it was time to rest.

He terrified me! ☹

Philippines 2:5 In your relationships with one another, have the same attitude of mind Christ Jesus had.

Me and Mike in Israel

Well it was an ugly start to the day. Mije was up 90 minutes earlier than usual and he was in a really bad mood! He decided the door to go downstairs ended to be removed, and he took tools to it to take it off the hinges! I yelled at him to stop it and he refused. I got between him and the door and told him firmly, to stop it and he threw the tools onto the tile floor. Thankfully, none broke. Then he yelled, “this isn’t right, you’re a tyrant, a dictator! I know you laugh at me and you are enjoying this” then he raised his fist and I thought he was going to hit me. I was so scared, but I stood my ground and looked at him, and he slammed his fist into the door , next to my head. ☹ He told me he refused to stay here and he was leaving. He got his coat on and walked out the front door. Of course I followed him to make sure he didn’t get hurt. All of this madness happened in under an hour! I took Mike to the Bennett House, Phil and Paola were with us, and Mije behaved himself on the way there. At the time to puck him up, Phil drove over to get Mike and I was able to stay home. ❤

After dinner, and getting his evening meds, Mike fell asleep in the chair in his room. I didn’t wake him. He looked comfortable, and he sleeps there a lot during the day.

As I am ready to go to sleep tonight, I am still a little shaken over this mornings behavior. I hope and pray it doesn’t happen again!

Aggressive , angry & belligerent

Ephesians 5:20 Always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our lord Jesus Christ.

Me and Mike, seated; with friends, Phil & Paola

Today started out really good, we went to the chiropractor, and then was filled in the was Phil and Paola in the car we ended up at Elmer’s for breakfast.

After we finished eating, I drove down to Higgins Point on Lake Coeur d’Alene drive. We talked about the eagles coming in November, and leaving again in January, and then then we drove to Fernan lake. The above picture, was taken there. The above picture, was taken there. Talked about the moose coming into the Bay, I talked about Is the beautiful water poppies and the pretty water lilis the water lilies, and we talked about the osprey coming in and fishing during the time that the lake is being stocked.

After we got home, Michael took a quick nap, and then he became agitated and aggressive and belligerent. I told him I wanted to help him take a bath and he said over my dead body. I told him he had an odor and he needed to clean himself and that he needed help but he refused from there he decided he was going to start driving again. I told him no, and he absolutely got so angry and said “we’ll see about that!”

He wanted me to call the doctor right then and there, and I wouldn’t do it. I told him we seized the doctor on Thursday and he can discuss it at that point. He told me I’d better be sure to know that he was definitely going to talk about this because it was ridiculous that he wasn’t allowed to drive. Oh!Boy! This is a potential boiling point getting ready to ignite.

I had hoped, by now, he would have realized he wasn’t capable of driving, handling a vehicle. I was, obviously, wrong. I know I need to give the doctor a “heads-up ” before he gets into the exam room with Mike. Even though I’ll be in there also, I want him to be aware if whats going on ahead of time.

Tonight, after Mike went to bed, he was up 3x. Each time I helped him to get back into bed, covered him, kissed his forehead, lights out and close the door. Each time, he was back up within 5 minutes 1. He needed a drink of water; 2. He needed to go to the bathroom; 3. He needed some Sudafed for a sinus issue he was having. Finally, he was in bed, and stayed there. It’s after 11 pm, and I am now able to go to sleep myself.


Isaiah 40:31 But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up on wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.

A peaceful stream

It was a good day. I was able to get several, small errands done while Mike was safe at the Bennett House. I spoke with our Pastor, got keys made, filled the car with fuel, got the car vacuumed and washed, and changed Mike’s bedding.

After I got Mike back home, I drove to Spokane Airport to pick up Phil & Paola Canaday. They’ve flown in to visit, and we’ve already had a nice, lengthy chat!

Mike and I showed them the house, and the yard, and this wore Mike out, completely. He went to bed at 6:45!

Mike kept insisting I hadn’t told him they were coming to visit, I assured him I had, he finally accepted it- what a dilemma, not remembering you were informed of someone’s visit, yet here they are!

I have been pretty tired, and my voice has been scratchy, but after this evening’s talk fest, it’s really scratchy. I am needing to sign off for tonight.

Mike’s lost more weight

Psalm 18:1 I love You, O Lord, my Strength

A sparrow at my window this morning

Mike’s sister left early, I had given her the alarm code and showed her where the unit was. She wanted to be up between 5:30-5:45 and I didn’t want to be up that early. Since I didn’t have any alarms set. I slept until 7:30. While I was making my morning tea, a sparrow kept knocking at the window 😘 Quite a pleasant way to start the morning.

Mike didn’t get up until 12:30 and he asked for something to eat. I fixed him oatmeal with fresh peaches and he went back to sleep. Later on he asked for an Ensure and something to eat. So I gave him the drink and fixed grilled ham & cheese. He slept again. I was able to get the basement bedroom and bathroom cleaned while he slept, and Robert stayed with him while I went to the market. Mike was cold most of the day. He sat in his room with a heater going and he wore his plaid, flannel jacket.

Mike wasn’t interested in dinner, and he was ready to go to bed at 7:15, for the night. I gave him his meds and kissed him goodnight. He’s down to 135 pounds now. Seeing the cancer specialist can’t come soon enough.

I have the house alarm set, and I am closing down for today.

He looks frail and fragile

Luke 1:37 For no word from God will ever fail

A cozy fireplace.

I’ve been awake since 3 am, and up since 6:15. I woke with some special people on my heart, and I spent a bit of time praying for them before I got up. I was enjoying a cup of tea in the quiet morning and Vicki joined me. (She likes to talk) At 8:30 Mike was up wanting to go to breakfast, and as soon as the housekeeper arrives, we took off for Mike’s favorite restaurant, Elmer’s. After breakfast, and getting home, Mike took a long nap and I sliced tomatoes and zucchini for the dehydrator. Vicki kept her dog sitting on her lap while she looked for bamboo curtains online.

When I was done in the kitchen I asked her what her opinion was of Mike’s condition. She said he looks very frail, and fragile. He’s slowed down from when she was here a year ago, and she was amazed at the change. It seems to be happening fast. – However, I have to say, while she’s been here, Mike has been a little more engaged, and a little more talkative. This is a good thing.

Vicki leaves tomorrow morning, and I am hoping she has a safe drive back home. We’ve had some really heavy rain, and cold winds blowing. I may have to put a fire in the cast iron stove, it’s getting really chilly.

Now, at 9:30 pm, Mike’s in bed asleep, Vicki has finished packing, I have cleaned the kitchen and I am now in my room. I’ve been awake over 18 hours and I am very tired.


Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go

A baby moose, eating my plants

I was awake at 6 am to shut off the house alarm, and Vicki was able to take her dog out. I fell back to sleep, but woke up the 2nd time with a headache! 😖

After helping Mike get his shoes on, the 3 of us left to take him to the Bennett House, then Vicki, and I, had a light breakfast, went to Costco, and to Home Goods. After getting Mike, we went to Iron Pizza for dinner, and Mike told me he was tired. We went straight home.

Last night I had asked Vicki to keep the downstairs door locked for Mike’s safety, and she didn’t. Mike ended up downstairs, and sort of “lost” Thankfully, he came back up and watched TV in his room, Vicki joined him.

While Mike was watching one of his programs, Vicki told me she’d stay with Mike, if I wanted to do something tomorrow. I thanked her, and told her I had run my errands on Wednesday so I didn’t have anything to do. She said, “you can go shopping, or just out without Mike. I’ll stay home with him.” Hmmmm, No. I think not. I need to do some things in the house, and I have more visitors coming on Monday!

Vicki said Mike looks very frail and fragile, and I agree with that assessment. He says he needs to try to gain some weight, and I agree with that also. However, he’s been saying that for a while; he just keeps losing weight.

It has been sprinkling most of the afternoon, and tonight it really rained hard. I am hoping my heating/AC unit gets fixed before much longer. We have had no AC since August 1, and now we have no heat. I may have to call an independent person to come and check out my unit. This is getting ridiculous! For now, it’s not horribly bad, but as the weather continues to cool, it could become serious! I have to wake up, again, at 6 am to shut off the alarm so Vicki can take her dog out.

Mike slept

Romans 8:31 Is what, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?

Looking down on Ponderay Lake from Schwitzer Mountain ski resort

Mije was only up 2x last night, and that was good. I woke up at 6:45 and I laid in bed enjoying the warm and comfort. We didn’t have anyplace to go, or anywhere we needed to be. It was lovely to lay there. At 7:30 I got a call from a friend, Cindy. She told me another friend, Stephanie, had to take her husband into the ER last night. He was having trouble breathing. (He doesn’t have c0vid) He has other health issues and needs prayer.

Anyway, I got up about 7:45 and got ready for the day. Mike slept. I had a cup of tea, and an English muffin, and Mike slept. I cleaned up after myself, swept the floor, and Mike slept. I dusted the furniture and made another cup of tea, and Mike slept!

Mike got up about 1 and immediately fell asleep on the sofa. At 2 he asked for breakfast, so I made oatmeal with fresh strawberries. He ate it all! 😁 My neighbor, JoAnn came over and we visited for 90 minutes; after she left Mike wanted to go to Elmer’s for dinner. He had the fish & chips.

Once back at the house, Mike’s sister called and said she’d be here around 9:30 tonight, and after Mike went to bed, I stayed up to greet Vicki and to show her which room she’d be sleeping in. We talked until 10:45. I have to get up at 6 to shut off the house alarm so she can take her dog out.

Tonight a frost/freeze prediction is stated, so I covered the tomato plants and adjusted the water away from them. I still am hoping for a few more to ripen. The others I will pick and place in a cool, dry room to slowly ripen through the winter months.

I have the feeling I am forgetting something major, but I don’t know what it is. I am to tired to stay awake to figure it out.

More demanding and belligerent

Matthew 5:9 Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called the children of God.

Volunteer sunflowers in my yard

Mike woke me up 3x last night, not physically shaking me, or verbally calling me; he was up, wandering the house, making noises. This woke me. I find I tend to get headaches now, probably because I am not getting enough sleep.

Mike is awake more, but he’s becoming more demanding, and more belligerent He says he doesn’t want to argue over everything, yet he argues with me constantly. He keeps telling me to mind my own business, he doesn’t need someone to watch over him. Then he turns around and asks for help getting his shoes and socks on, or putting his shirt on correctly. I believe the arguing is due to the dementia, but I’m not sure.

Mike was awake and getting dressed this morning at 7:15, as I was going downstairs. I told him he could sleep for 3 more hours and he said okay. And then he was up, and down, he got up to get a drink of water, he went to the bathroom, he laid back down, He wanted to find his shoes, and then he wanted to find a socks,And then he laid back down. Then he decided to take a shower, so he got up got a stuff together and climbed the stairs to the shower. When he was finished he didn’t go back to bed, he laid down on the sofa. And then he was upset every time I moved, every time I made a noise, this lace, he was frustrated because I woke him up. Eventually, about 9:30 this morning, I convinced him to go back to bed. When I woke him up at 10:45 to go to the Bennett house, then he was upset because he didn’t feel he had had enough sleep.

I got my errands done today. I got to the bank, Costco, in the Post Office, I got home and unloaded the car get everything put away, and then it was time to go get Mike again.

He went to sleep on the sofa as soon as we got in, and while he slept I went to the backyard checked my plants make sure everything was all right, and I picked a few tomatoes.

After dinner, Mike decided to watch a little bit of TV; And at 7 o’clock he decided it was time for bed, I had him wait until 7:30 and gave him his evening meds, and I told him good night. He blew up!! Told me I was out of line, told me I was micromanaging and I needed to leave him alone. (sigh) He was in bed by 7:45.

Now I have set his meds up for the next 2 weeks. He has several, so I put them in piles for each day, then put the piles into snack baggies. Each morning and each evening he gets a baggie. Many pills in the morning, 6 for the evening. This helps me keep track of what needs to be refilled, and also makes giving them to him easier. Everything is locked away, and I have hidden the key, so he can’t get into them.

Now, as the evening progresses, I am beginning to get sleepy. Time to sign off.